I, in the beginning justified my reasoning’s in my own wisdom and understanding, which by the way turned out being nothing but hot air. The fundamental question that comes to mind, is, can whatever I might believe really be justified by the standards, which apply to how everything in this world came into existence? One other of the many things I am starting to learn is that it it’s not about opinions. I must connect, to the Spirit of God directing me when setting out to start a new walk with HIM, and i must remember the Spirit of God will never lead contrary to the revealed word of God, and the living words of Christ, manifested in the workings of the Holy Spirit. So, with this being said, I know this is the whole reason why the Lord let these changes happen, so i can in all earnest, participate in nothing less than a full recovery of exclusively following HIM, which I believe is also the crying need of these last days.
As you perhaps can gather by now, I am finding my way back to Jesus Christ, and the experiences that I am blessed with are all puzzle pieces that slowly make the original plan, of why Jesus in all facets is the most important endeavor in life.
I had to start from scratch. I had to quash all i learned, invalidate everything I thought I knew, as I realized, everything I thought was truth was contaminated and polluted.
Perhaps you get a better picture if I use this analogy which depicts the sentiments of what I was confronted with. There are Billions of professing Christians in Thousands of denominations, groups, sects, congregations, institutions and so forth. All these different assemblies consider themselves to be followers of Jesus Christ. An unbiased analysis although, begs the question: Did Christ mean for it to be this way? Billions claim to follow Jesus, but all have a different understanding of who and what He is—and what He taught. They do not all walk together in the same faith. One website claims that “Jesus is becoming clearer” because there are 175,000 books written about Him. But is this really clarity—or rather confusion and misperception?
Every professing Christian, those who claim to be followers of Christ, must ask what Jesus’ reaction would be to today’s Christianity. Would He approve of the array of symphonies and worship? Would He accept every shape, size, flavor and color of belief? Would He accept the confusing message that is sent from the thousands of Christian denominations? Somewhere something must be wrong, and this is why I had to start from scratch, and with God’s help start with baby steps to rediscover the Jesus that came to unite us with our heavenly father in giving his life as a ransom, so we have a door opened through which we can find our way back to the father.
The truth is that professing Christianity is not a symphony of faith—it is a dissonance of beliefs. If one understands the scriptures of the Holy Bible, then he understands that God is not the author of this world’s lived, alienated Christianity.
There are some tough questions to be answered, but I believe it is crucial to find out where I took the wrong turn in the fork of my path. Like it says in Hebrews 4:12: The Word of God is living and powerful, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner and judge of the thoughts and intents of the heart.
But the clue for me was the simple statement of John 10:27: My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I don’t know but this was a real eye-opener, a child-like revelation. Realizing that in the midst of all the mayhem of symphonies off gospels preached from the pulpits, each with a different set of beliefs in how to please God, how to worship God, how to seek God, my sheep hear my voice. I did not hear his voice but my heart cheered me in saying to seek God with all my heart, so my heart will undoubtedly know I am His sheep.